It's embarrassing to write after not writing for 7 months... Oh well...

So here's the quick update:

I'm living in LA - on the campus of the University of Judaism. I'm in my second year there - I'm in a 3 year joint masters program. I'm still on campus, but I have a roommate now and we even each have our own rooms!!! What a nice change....

I'm dating this amazing amazing woman named Sarah... It's so much fun!! I'm really crazy about her... It's so much fun to be in a relationship that's FUN!

Other than that, things are going along... I'm working like crazy. I work for 3 organizations: Los Angeles Hebrew High School, Adat Ari El (Kadima), and Valley Beth Shalom. I'm doing an adminstrative internship at LAHHS, running the Kadima (the youngest youth group - 4-6th grades) at AAE, and doing an e-mail curriculum at VBS. It's very busy, but it's good....

Ok. I don't even know if anyone ever sees this, so I won't spend more time here now... I have to remember about this so that I can write on it more often! Then maybe I'd want other people to read it...

- R

Since I lost cable-modem access, I haven't been signing on... but I just got an e-mail from some yellow pages thing telling me that they want to link to me. I guess that's cool.. Who knows if it'll actually happen, but it'd be fun to think that people might actually look at this... WELOME TO ME...
I'm in LA now, since June... what a weird city...

The past week has been interesting... I've been working a lot... the SAT course is going a lot better than it had been... figures that there's only 2 courses left, but... at least I'm feeling more inclined to continue teaching for them.

I've been exchanging e-mails with a wonderful woman from LA... she's a little bit older, 27, and she's absolutely fascinating... We're both into talking and free thinking... it's been really interesting... I have no idea what'll happen when I get out there, but I can't wait to meet her and talk without typing.

In other news, I'm really spending a lot of time thinking about my move... They are in the process of hiring a new person for my job... it's very weird... I'm sad that I'm leaving. This past Friday I went down to Kitty O'Shea's with some old friends and it was just surreal to realize that I'd see them maybe once more? I just can't fathom not being here...

Off to bed.

Ow.

Went to Manray last night with P., A., and Pete... It was a lot of fun, but as has been true lately, I felt REALLY old... But still it was really fun - got to work off some energy. And Amy wasn't there (I had moments of fear before I went out!!) so all went smoothly.

However, I got home around 3 and got up at 7:30. It's 9:10 now (I'm at work) and I'm feeling it. I can't wait to go home and take a nap! :)

Ow.

Went to Manray last night with P., A., and Pete... It was a lot of fun, but as has been true lately, I felt REALLY old... But still it was really fun - got to work off some energy. And Amy wasn't there (I had moments of fear before I went out!!) so all went smoothly.

However, I got home around 3 and got up at 7:30. It's 9:10 now (I'm at work) and I'm feeling it. I can't wait to go home and take a nap! :)

Ow.

Went to Manray last night with P., A., and Pete... It was a lot of fun, but as has been true lately, I felt REALLY old... But still it was really fun - got to work off some energy. And Amy wasn't there (I had moments of fear before I went out!!) so all went smoothly.

However, I got home around 3 and got up at 7:30. It's 9:10 now (I'm at work) and I'm feeling it. I can't wait to go home and take a nap! :)

Well. Amy has blocked all methods of conversation. Not a f#cking clue where this came from. So something happened and she clearly does't want to talk about it. I think I'm going to let this one go, at least for a while. Strange...

Dinner with Pete last night, it was great. We sat and talked for hours.... I wish I were interested in him, we have such a great time together! :)

Just got back from a mini-road trip with The Ex. It was nice. I wanted to get out of here for a little while - I think I also subconciously (not a clue) knew that I'd have a really hard time sleeping tonight, so it was better to spend that time out and not lying in bed stressing over the fact that I can't sleep. I always have a hard time sleeping when I'm not completely exhausted. We went up to his office in Chelmsford and wandered around. We talked about Amy and about other things. Its always a little strained between us, but it's getting better. I'd never get back together with him, but it's nice to think that someday we might be friends again.

I think it's a dangerous thing that on M.'s computer the posting window is much bigger and the type is smaller. I feel welcome to write more. Oh well. Tomorrow he'll be home and I won't have as open access to his computer. I hope mine comes back soon.

Well, well, well... My computer has been down, that's the reason behind the long break. It's at the shop now, so hopefully it'll get fixed soon. I did end up seeing Amy on Thursday down at The Midway Cafe in JP. It was a very weird night. It was great to see her again (cuter than I remembered), but I felt really uncomfortable and out of my element. I didn't really like the music and I couldn't think of any stupid chatty things to say. :( I thought that all wasn't lost as I asked her if she still wanted to come down here on Friday night (as we had planned) and she said, of course! However, on Friday I got an e-mail saying that she was wicked sick, had been sick since she got home from the Club and so couldn't come down. Ok, now I'm sad. I wrote back that I hoped she felt better. Fast forward to that afternoon, I got back on line (using my roommate's computer as I am now) and I wrote her another e-mail saying that I hoped she was feeling better and I wanted to know if she'd like company or if she thought she'd like to reschedule... I also sent her an e-card. Then I went over to Josh's apartment for dinner and we went out to Woburn to see Bridget Jones' Diary, which was really good. Got home around 3. Slept until noon or so. Mid afternoon I was starting to (honestly) get worried about Amy - she's usually on line as much as I am and she hadn't gotten that card I sent her (you can check a box to tell you when they pick it up). So I wrote her an e-mail asking her to call me when she got it, just so I'd know she was ok. That was more than 24 hrs ago. So apparently I fucked up somewhere. I guess I shouldn't be surprised, but I kind of am. Oh well....

Just over 2 hours left of passover. I'm in the mood for a drive - Josh said he'd go with me... I was thinking about going to the cape or something - but I don't know... I talked to M. last night for quite some time - I was drinking and crying and he kept telling me that all was ok and I should get away today... and call out tomorrow. I'm just so damn bad at doing that. Ok. Enough for now.

Street Bonding:
The act of sharing an amusing moment on the street with a complete stranger and both acknowledging it.

My street bonding experience for today: Walking down Harvard Street from not picking up my photos at CVS and a guy (mid 40's) is standing in front of an apartment building on his cell phone. Yelling: "Stop nagging me. Don't yell at me. You're turning into Grandma. Don't say that to me. You're turning into your mother, you know that don't you." I nearly burst into laughter it was so comical! Then, about 1/2 a block later this guy who had been about 10 paces ahead of me for the incident turned around and saw that I was laughing, too and said "I'm glad I'm not the only one who thought that was hysterical."

I'm in NY now for Passover. I'm completely exhausted. I'm talking to Amy about what I should do to come out to my parents... oy...